Saturday, March 19, 2011

Struggling with the Man in the Mirror

Reflections on John 15

I am struggling with the man in the mirror.

I read in John all about His Love and be fruitful and share that Love...I am afraid.  Why do I struggle with this, why am I afraid.  Jesus says that I am the branch, He is the vine.  The branch can not abide with out the vine.  The vine is the conduit to the nutrient rich roots.  The roots that hold the nutrients needed for the branch to produce good fruit...LOVE...

God is Love.  Yet when I look at God and see the Love he has for me I am ashamed...no I am threatened.  I can not measure up...I see God giving me His Love so freely, sacrificing everything so I may have life with Him.  When I look at myself I see the hollow shell of a man that has experienced PURE LOVE but fails to reflect it.  Why do I struggle?

Is it because the world hates me.  I have been chosen out by Jesus and therefor not of the world so now the world hates me.  Is it because of this hate that I struggle?  No, I struggle because when I look in the mirror I fail to see God looking back at me...I only see the hollow shell of a man that I tried to create...

I am not my own creation though.  I am His creation...I was made in His image not my own...He has given me a Spirit of Love.  I did not make it my self I only try to cover it up because I feel I can not measure up to the Love God has shown me.  He never asked me to...He just asked me to Trust Him to work His Love through me...

I struggle with the man in the mirror not looking like God.  That is why He Loves me...because I know I can not do it with out him and I do trust him.